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Aseity: I

by Nexilva

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1.
Redeemed 04:21
So here we are Alone with the options we thought we'd never have to face To emerge or cause to immerse again We depend on our actions Can our time in black be corrected? Dragging on again So distant and here we stand Nothing to lose But nothing left to gain. Near and far events Across ocean and land So distant here we stand For intentional affect No more can we dwell on what's been taken from us Carry on and venture into madness And those who try to bury us, or strive to complete this Could never live up to the name For one and apart we weren't the same Boundaries set in giant leaps and bounds of time In their design they challenged those Lacking the means to interchange another race They fled into hell, never thought to return We couldn't forget and remain Inevitable Unable to stand against the demons we faced We turned to quiet in everyday Almost ashamed of our dismay Angered by whatever we couldn't say As if there was always another way out Years passed in our desire As though time had accelerated around us Abandoned us Through their worn and aged eyes we are found Their salvaging gaze cast deeper underground An end to the darkness as it was The fall of pitch black confidence An end to darkness as it was But after all the time I could never find I can not forget where I came from Redeemed, retrieved It's only what's missing Is this all that you will recieve Reawakened, replaced It's in our convictions We can't be fallen from grace For all the time that we were underground I never thought we could surface Or if we even deserved it We can't stand the silence You won't be deserted in our time Life won't be cut short in our eyes You won't be deserted in our time Rediscovered, regained It could all be meaningless A life yet to be fulfilled We return, reborn To shatter the still Through their eyes, aged and worn We are now found
2.
Decades 04:03
How hard do I need to look To find weapons that justify my need for peace How far must I walk down this road Among dwindling pieces of agony that feed my disease My naivety serves as sweet justice Dissolving everything I stand upon Evolving all that I pride myself on Over and around my every restraint This danger is awake To lie to my brain to remain Living death I long for dreams of reality Where crying is heard over laughter And I find that my demons infect me They grow higher than I've ever seen before Longer than I can percieve An end to the madness inside of me Is no longer a tale I can believe A tale I can believe Only now do I see As I'm coerced into climbing Though my freewill is tiring I breath The higher the dream The greater, the faster it feeds As though I'm forced into dying The extent of all I see astounds me Every step recedes abhorently The trail I'd expect is reduced to nothing in front of me As far as I can see Can I continue to climb these demons of mine Or will I be deserted in my time Only now do I see This journey I constructed in fear Is nothing it was made out to be It was all a conspiracy Every step recedes abhorently This winding path is no longer free And sadly For every stone that I turned to defeat you Every bone that I broke has betrayed me To fall in line, A struggle I just can't seem to end I can't help but defend the upper hand Awake from effortless sleep I fear I've gone to deep There's something i've been missing Clear skies await Upon the realisation of this My journey diminished by fate For longer I can climb, this forever line Of misery over time Only now do I see This journey I constructed in fear Is nothing it was made out to be It was all a conspiracy Every step recedes abhorently This winding path is no longer free And sadly For every stone that I turned to defeat you Every bone that I broke has betrayed me
3.
Overview 04:34
In truth we are fragile More than we know In existence we're the futile More than we show We hang against a backdrop of the infinite We're on a vessel in need of a cognitive shift We're blessed to witness this For it will change the very path of our consciousness Looking down from the outside Straining as the glares radiate From a sun in a black sky Alive Overview In the haze I see colours And suddenly it all makes sense Overview In the haze I hear a calling So openly I see the signs Our time can seem so much shorter here As thin as our degrading lifeline Disbanded in time Detached from being and dreaming Inside And fall within Entrusted with the protection of our saviour from the sun This bountiful oasis she's trusted us to uphold Keep her from harm as you would your own Obeying together The promise of old For the gift of life we should be grateful Poles apart it's farther from the truth For our siblings here can be so hateful Guiding her to the fatal noose Ocean storm cloud swarm around Up here there's true peace to be found Dancing curtains of auras flutter the skies A vision of the line where Day and Night divide The heavens before us No separation to ground us Overview In the haze I see colours And suddenly it all makes sense Overview In the haze I hear a calling So openly I see the signs You only have to live Just let go
4.
Taking strides into foreign land Where time is my only currency Holding memory high in my growing mind Breaking the dull ties of our normalcy The forgotten ones are said to remove our sight Our potential to recognise the future Our gift from the temporal divine I've been left behind and it all remains My vision of hours behind this sudden change Unable to make sense of my new reality Am I remembering or am I alive A momentary glimpse of all of time Imagine living in a feared idea Where chance is our only option A choice never made is the only way To remain divided in perception A parallel dimensional looking glass Never taking away the possible alternatives Forever alive in every decision Beyond anything I could imagine The distance flaunts Memories born of my thoughts The hours, they turn into days Another life How would we survive in detached isolate Where there should be only one, there is forever We could dicipher our timeline We could utilise strength And break the design I saw every little move I made Sewn together in an open grave Paving the road to my dismay If the future's this close to me How can I live in every day I saw every little move I made Sewn together in an open grave If the future's this close to me How can I live in every day Tracing back to every single path I take Through open doors to all of my mistakes If the future is unknown to me How can I see it in my own disease I feel I'm spread to thin Floating on a wave through the tranquil Feel the water and it's energetic embrace Lying in a translucent splendour Lucid journies become one An epiphany for progression The elegant truth of what is felt inside Notions of beauty swarming my mind Still dead alive Magnetism to the other side Traversing further through the stream Collected memories become the reality One entity Travelling to witness the light Reaching the handle to become No one
5.
Nadir 05:41
Twenty-two short years The smallest grain of sand Without my arms to comfort Without the help of my outstretched loving hand Facing the current Accepting the pain Tears tearing at my skin. Not the same Pieces of what's left Remembering your name The light's no longer akin I return to your home Nervously we approached an empty shell Dreading the sight of her sadness No words seem right for comfort Wake me from all this madness Unforgettable times of togetherness Knowing that we could just be ourselves in this bliss I slowly open the door My palms sweat and my abandoned stomach churns Everything is alien to everyone I slowly open the door Pictures of you cycling through my head Like an unstoppable carousel Yearning for a final goodbye How should I feel? Where should I go? I don't belong but This is my fucking home! Reduced to a comic box Lifeless Nothing but numbness and this pain in my chest That just will not rest Pictures of you cycling through my head Like an unstoppable carousel For a final goodbye Makes it harder just to let you go I walk the earth for you Searching high and low Just to find any remnants of you In denial push against the flow I cannot cease these dreams Of what could have been I can't stop the machine Travelling Witnessing We are one There is a peaceful silence The flicker of a burning candle And even with all that is lost I don't feel alone in a building of disbelief The sickness feels all too much for me Can I save your dreams How should I feel Where should I go Like a mountain of emptiness Never set in stone
6.
Impulsively awakened I thrive Among the minds so abnormal to mine Their abrasive lies Forcing me to cross that line Their paradise of indifferent awareness Dragged ever further from my grasp I long for a second of silence In this searing temple of fire An awful prison in twilight Alive at night In every dwindling spire There's an interior fight The doors are barred and hell is inside As I attempt to hide I'm encased As if evil had ever felt safe My surroundings are bleak Though these notions will find me enslaved It won't let me escape My body is weak Face to face I embrace this being And it's terrible aura unknown Where once was ever sweeter dreams It finds me cold and alone Again Dead inside and stolen Begin Reborn eyes in hoping Your hands are shaking Let me resurge I can shine though your body is aching Let yourself die for I am the light I accept I have lost the fight As the everlasting night returns I change Swallowed by the darkness, infected Falling into the flames of despair As they flood the halls with terror Forever they endevour The blistering might of their power Shown full force in their stature For this will never be over Ever be their nature entombed by their master Heed my words Know my will (I know you will erase me) You feel my burn Your world will turn Down paths I could never follow He speaks to me Lines I could never cross In daylight I'm at ease Through every little toil He weakens me The spite that he murmurs clothes me in scorn So embedded I can't escape Ingesting my soul I wish to be reborn And emerge some place in day Falling deep in secrets My patience wanes As I attempt to hide I'm encased As if evil had ever felt safe The doors are barred And hell is inside I've made my choice to die Taking time to close these eyes Where eternal twilight goes to thrive The doors are barred And hell is inside I've made my choice to die Taking time to close these eyes Where eternal twilight goes to thrive In hell I find my mind

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released July 20, 2018

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